Repentance was not always one of my favorite things to do. I remember associating it with guilt and not so enjoyable moments in God’s presence. Whenever I would hear that we need to pray and repent, those were not the prayer meetings I used to run to but I would go anyway and hope that the prayer session would be short. I wonder if there is someone else who feels that way or has ever felt that way.
I have had to repent of some things this week. Not that there are weeks I am perfect and don’t sin but this week in particular revealed some things that I really should not be doing and I don’t think the Lord was pleased with. It wasn’t even things that are quite obvious as sin to others. It was things like realizing I am not speaking in love and I am being critical. The thing I have come to learn about criticizing others is that no matter how much I justify it, it is still wrong. Whenever I am being critical I can always tell deep down that it is what I’m doing even if I try to coat it with that I’m just being honest or whatever else.
There are some things I do that leave me wondering why I did that and how can I still be doing that now. After having walked with the Lord for so many years I should know better and actually do know better but somehow I find myself in some situations and find myself thinking, “After all these years of walking with You Lord, am I really still struggling with this?”
I read a scripture that changed my perspective on repenting. Perhaps the reason I never used to like praying and repenting is because it made me feel like I had done so much wrong and sinned so much. After moments of repentance come times of refreshing! Every time I take to God the things I’m struggling with and sin in my life, I always get so refreshed and filled with joy and empowered to do better. So if you repent and feel burdened recognize that it is not because of the sin you repented of but because of the enemy who still wants you to remain in condemnation. There is no condemnation for those who are in Christ. It is not that there is no condemnation for those who do not sin. If you are in Christ, you are not condemned no matter what.
Repent, then, and turn to God, so that your sins may be wiped out, that times of refreshing may come from the Lord (Acts 3:19 NIV)
Therefore, there is now no condemnation for those who are in Christ Jesus (Romans 8:1 NIV)
David knew this. He repented of his sin in psalm 51. In psalm 32 he talks about the guilt that comes with not repenting. When he did not repent and kept his sin a secret (which it really never is a secret before God), his bones wasted away. Bring it to God, whatever it is, just take it God. You will be forgiven and refreshed.
God bless you